What In The World Is She Thinking!?

I am calling it

I am calling it. When people say, you are never alone someone is watching your back. I am calling it bullshit. You will always be alone, when you are down, people ignore you and when you are up they just gotta push you down.

2012 has been horrible to me and it looks like its not going to change this year either. Love was lost and found and lost again. Friends became enemies, friendships broken beyond compare. Trust broken and slowly builted up once again then, go into flames in a second. Can it get any worst?

I now know who my real friends are and whether the love I gave was valued or not. Well, truth be told, friendships were not cherished and love was not valued. I really do feel like a marrionette in the real world being used by everyone who walked into my life. Am I going to make something out of myself? Does it even matter if I have something of my own on paper but no control over in real life?

Is it worth it? I guess you really are alone in this world that’s so consumed in greed and revenge. I am sick of it, I ain’t going to go on anymore I damned wish I didn’t wake up from the sleep but that would be selfish of me. Who will know?